I’ve been dealing with my eating disorder for quite some time now, and have come to the realization that it’s never brought me happiness, yes I lose weight, then I go through crazy binging sessions and gain it back, suffering for nothing has become quite exhausting to say the least! So this week I joined the gym, and I have been making myself have at least one meal a day (very healthy) and when I feel ok I’m having two. Yes I know that’s not healthy but in working on it and it’s progress. I’ve been at the gym every day, I’m working on becoming a stronger me, physically and mentally! I am going to need a lot of support through all of this.
I’m tired of feeling week, that’s always been what I thrive on, that feeling when you get dizzy cause it’s been 3 days since your last meal? I’ve always loved that feeling. But now I’m making myself change that. I want to feel weak from a kickass workout but then afterward feel stronger because of it! I want to be strong, I want to be healthy, I want to live. So where you use to see thinspo and posts about how long it’s been since I ate last, hopefully now you’ll be seeing fitspo, healthy meals, workout plans, and a better me.
Joined a gym this week, can’t wait to have a nice body like this!
East Texas, not far from louisana :)